I try to post to my soc med, not because I want to show off but I want to be reminded of these memories many years ahead. Now that I don't do blog as often as I used to, I try to post to IG / path just for the sake of capturing those moments. I guess that's why I want to start writing again, about my feeling currently, hopefully it will release the bad feelings, helps me gain more power and makes me feel better again ;)
I know it's nearly my period time, the time when I used to feel 'galau', whether I've done enough in my work and family ? Am I good enough ? Can I be better ? because I want to be better. Am I in the right place ? Should I move to new work place ? If I move / if I get busier with work will I still have time for my children.. If I stay what should I do to make more and so on.. it's a never ending list.. kyaa
But one thing for sure, despite of all the worries, us already have small achievements that should be counted on :
1. I have paid 4 days of fasting .. yeaay 43 days to go :P
2. Husband and I have regularly go jog .. though not much of distance but it's nice to have sweat once / twice a week
3. My FD always finish on time #yesitsworkrelated
4. This month marking my last trip to Japan bills is paid off
5. This month marking shaf's last medical bills is paid off
6. Children made a lot of progression on their school reports
7. and other stuff apart from school too, better than I used to be on their age
8. Our house is always full of food Alhamdulillah, clean and tidy too
9. the kids is having good education, they don't have to worry on how to go and get back from school
10. they also have their lesson outside school too
11. I can buy their favorite toys
12. Husband and I can help our parents pay their bills too
Hopefully starting next month I can save a whole lot more, getting closer to my next dream, not to forget to save for future self too.
My mum once said that I already have many bags and I can borrow hers too, She said I should not buy more bags but saving for upgrading my car instead :P
May be it's God plan that I have to undergo much painful process so I'm a lot happy when my Kay get 100 on her test, or she can master new song so eloquently or Shaf can make more friends or She can finally said No if someone bugging him or Al can finally learn how to kick and being counted on his football team .. or saving every penny can finally bring me closer to my dream car :D
